Afterlife

Happy birthday , Dad.

I have always wondered if there is an afterlife.

And if there is, why have I never ‘sensed’ your presence?

And if there is, have you met with Peanut?

I used to say out loud ‘where is Old Master?’ And Peanut will look up to the left or right, as though you were in the room. He didn’t remember you during his final months though.

If there is, I hope both of you are having the ball of your lives playing with his favorite ball.

I miss you both so much.

Peanut

Abit of me died together with you that day. Not a day passes without me looking at your pic and feeling a twinge in my heart. I still cry every other night and stroke the little urn containing your ashes before I sleep. I really tried very hard, my best, to keep you healthy and pain- free. Snuffing out your little life really broke my heart. I hope that, in exchange for my pain and heartbreak, you are in a better place now. 

Sleep well, for you are now free from the ravages of cancer and pain. 

Dogs

I have sometimes thought of the final cause of dogs having such short lives and I am quite satisfied it is in compassion to the human race; for if we suffer so much in losing a dog after an acquaintance of ten or twelve years, what would it be if they were to live double that time?

Walter Scott

Another year

Happy Birthday, dad. 

Happy birthday

Happy birthday, Dad. It has been so long,  but the memories are still fresh. I now know that it's a farce when people say time heals everything. Hah! 

I've lost count of the number of times I walked along the narrow streets of Hong Kong, thinking of how nice it would be if you were still around. Just the two of us, walking and exploring. Cheap beer, roasted meats, cool weather - imagine all the fun we would have. But I guess I would never have ended up in HK if you were still around. I would have missed you too much :)

I've been dreaming of you often lately, something that has not happened before. I wonder why? 

Peanut is getting on in years, otherwise all is well at home. 

*waves*